This was sex. Don’t you know that by now? Blowjob sex I lay there for an hour, replaying the vision over and over. This came as a surprise, though I realized immediately that it shouldn’t have. It’s an old, old puzzle. “Alex, I’m selfish — I don’t *want* you to come yet. Her hips widened enough to hold up her jeans and her waist narrowed; the baby fat disappeared quickly. I DO love you, Michael — do you understand? Our physical relationship also began to change shortly after we turned fifteen and fourteen. Neither of us had any sense of modesty at all in each other’s presence. I couldn’t take my eyes off her crotch. . It’s an old, old puzzle. Also, I OWN NOTHING. She licked her lips several times and seemed to be making up her mind. All teenage boys have experiences with girls in which their gonads overrule their better judgment, and they end up embarrassed, or ashamed, or even in real trouble.
